you need a lot of these letters to make a mat. but each letter functions on its own sweet way

just like this cotton candy...
one container, four different flavors 

people need to learn that no matter how close they are to a person, that person's business is not theirs. Most of the time, it is insulting to give unsolicited advice or help. Not meddling with a someone's problem doesn't mean being inconsiderate of that someone's feelings. On the contrary, it's the best expression of telling him/her that he/she is smart and strong enough to handle his/her situation.  

cosplay

cheska-san and I never talked about the outfits that we would wear this friday. It was mere coincidence or let's charge it to our almost similar wave length that we had the same theme. Yup: Anime style. 

It's not entirely cosplay since I did not have any anime character I could base my outfit on. Aside from that I want to just look the part without overdoing it. I haven't seen the day that i will wear a wig outside.

it's nice to deviate from my usual style from time to time. It breaks the ice around me. i want to catch people off guard and i can say i did it again. 

one speed only

Pascual Liner got it from me awhile ago. I gave the bus driver and the conductor a piece of my mind. It was my second time riding a bus from the same company and nothing changed: the bus was too slow. It was a déjà vu indeed. Speaking from the point of view of someone who rides the killer buses in Novaliches, this is definitely saying something. I felt that I should have taken a jeepney for all my money’s worth. Really. There was no difference. The bus kept on stopping at corners every two minutes or so—I was listening to my playlist as usual and I observed that a song did not finish without the bus stopping. Nothing would have ignited my anger, and I was even thinking that it was mere coincidence that the bus was Pascual Liner yet again, and I did not want to over generalize that company. What triggered my temper was the fact that more jeepneys passed us by. It was unnerving. At first, I only stomped my feet. The next time it happened, I already voiced my exasperation: Can’t this bus run any faster?

Not caring even if the other passengers gawked at me, I got off the bus. They could all stink in that bus for all I cared. All I had in mind was to get another bus that would run faster. Good thing I did.

Yup, I wasted my money but I got the sheer pleasure knowing that I had been right all along. That bus had one speed only. My second bus passed it along C-5.

I vow not to ride any bus from the same company. I don’t care even if they have different drivers, different buses and I doubt that they will notice that they miss one passenger from the thousands of people in my area. All I know is twice is enough.

unburied

A picture does paint a thousand words that I can’t bear looking at your happy ones…they shout at me that whilst I drown myself in my insufferable bitterness, you are there contented and satisfied. I have already thrown your pictures away. However, I still have one left-the one where you are neither happy, nor sad…your ID picture. It’s the only picture of thousands of words that I can interpret in thousands of meanings.

back pain

This morning I woke up with a terrible back ache and I kept on asking myself why for a full 3 minutes before I remembered. I had fallen down the stairs yesterday. It was not as tragic as “falling from stairs” sounds. I had slipped 3 steps, maybe.  I am still asking myself why I neither felt anything yesterday, nor early this morning when I went home. I am feeling the full impact of the fall this afternoon. My bones keep on complaining in funny places. 

my Duo--one of the few people
I'll cancel my appointments just to see

People rarely move me. People can rarely make me do something I don’t really want. Perhaps I have been exposed to different behaviors and manners already—I can pass as a Psychologist already. It is understandable then for my point of view that I have a high respect for some who can trigger my lazy bones and turn them into an adrenaline rush.

stinking bug...i hate it. I am itchy all over

There are things about me that I want to convey and let other people know. That is why I have a blog in the first place. There, whether it’s updated or not, I say what I think is good enough to be shared and I keep the rest to myself or to my well-chosen friend. Therefore, if I have something I keep from you, then that means you are not meant to know it. Neither have you the right to share it because how can you share something you are not entitled to. You are stealing something from me and the worse thing is I can’t imprison you for it. What’s the worst thing? The fact that you know me and yet you do this.

lines

"I like today because I feel that I exist."- Girry (Lee Ji Young)


"Smart phones are reasonable because they are smart. " Kevin (Kim Kyung Wan, 12)


"I think first impression is important because many people believe in it." - Wizz (Jeong Young Ho)

--receiving such responses from my students, i felt a touch of heaven. hehe. This is one of  the reasons that make language teaching interesting.

15042011 my top ear candies

After months of hiatus, I am back.




1. Shining- Yuki Shirai
2. Departures- Aozu and Cap to Bin
3. Iroasenai ano sora e- Stones
4. Fly High, Sky High
5. Driving Myself- Hiro X
6. Can't Keep On Loving You- Eliot Yamin
7. Gather- Ao To Bin To Kan
8. Hands Up- Bigbang
9. I believe- Fantasia
10. Don't Go Home, Baby- Gdragon and Top


The list will make sense to those who are into anime particularly Prince of Tennis. There are some English songs here and there and well, my playlist won't be complete without Bigbang.

15042011 my top ear candies

After months of hiatus, I am back.




1. Shining- Yuki Shirai
2. Departures- Aozu and Cap to Bin
3. Iroasenai ano sora e- Stones
4. Fly High, Sky High
5. Driving Myself- Hiro X
6. Can't Keep On Loving You- Eliot Yamin
7. Gather- Ao To Bin To Kan
8. Hands Up- Bigbang
9. I believe- Fantasia
10. Don't Go Home, Baby- Gdragon and Top


The list will make sense to those who are into anime particularly Prince of Tennis. There are some English songs here and there and well, my playlist won't be complete without Bigbang.

gotta catch 'em all

At this very moment, I am not really sure what to think. All I have in mind is I have to post something for my blog because it has been ages since I have last posted something substantial.

Shall I tell you about Pokemon?

Right. That’s all I can think of anyway. It’s my brother’s fault. You see, he downloaded a GBA application which enables people to play Gameboy games using PCs. I thought it was about time that I got to play a different game since I already conquered Zuma several months ago and the swirling colorful balls don’t interest me anymore.

Together with the application are the games themselves and some of them are Pokemon games. I could not believe my eyes at first and before I knew it, I was hooked. I am playing Pokemon Fire Red version by the way. It is my second time playing it through my PC. My first game has been corrupted by my own stupid fingers (I have saved a new game to my old game, huhu…). I think I am spending at least one hour a day playing it, forsaking my blogs, my stories, my laundry, myself. Can you blame me? I have been in love with Pikachu for as long as I can remember.

Currently, I have already succeeded in the Pokemon League (for those who have played this, you know what I am saying). I am being too careful in saving the game otherwise the same file corruption will happen. Also, I am so careful in battling now, aiming for my Pocketmonsters to reach higher levels. To give you an idea, my Charmander (Eiji) is level 73, Zapdos(Syuusuke) is 53, Articuno(Masaharu) is 51, Pikachu (Fuji) 51, Gyarados (Yuuta) 43, and Gloom (Ibu) 41.And yes, you are reading it correctly. I have named them after Prince of Tennis characters.

The big problem is the version I have is not complete and it ends after the player has beaten Gary Oak. This is upsetting for me since I have been expecting more. Blame the reviews and guides I have seen in the internet.

I think I will try the other versions even if I am not familiar with the new generation of Pokemons (how can Japan produce so many?).

That’s just it. You have wasted your time reading an incoherent journal about Pokemons. Hehe.

I have had enough of being threatened. I think it’s high time that criminals realize that we are more powerful than they are. Not because they hold knives and guns that it means we have to endure their threats. How many people are there in a bus or in a jeepney against 2-5 people who have flimsy weapons? We SHOULD NOT be afraid of them. THEY should be afraid of us. These people should not feel that they are strong. They should be ashamed of themselves until they decide to just erase themselves from the face of the earth.

Or else…

Go Charizard, I choose you! Fire blast!!! 

I am probably the last person you will think of when you hear the word stuffed toys. Or fluffy pillows.

I am probably the last person you will think of when you hear the word stuffed toys. Or fluffy pillows. Or cute teddy bears. Right?

But that is wrong.

How could you be so mean! I actually like them.

Whether you believe it or not.

The reason that I don’t seem to like them is I did not have any when I was young. My father has this strange philosophy that children can’t handle toys well and that “toys” should be given to kids when they already have the “mind” to handle them with care.

He therefore decided to give me one when I was already teaching in Chiang Kai Shek. I was really pleased. It was a lazy dog.

After that, the others came.

from my student in caloocan science

from Eugene Lester Lin of CKSC

from my III-7 students

from Kristie, Mariel, and Joemar, my friends from VCF

from my youngest brother, xerd

from my lovely III-4 students

from ryan kyle sia, III-6

from Maria Cecilia Villafuerte

I still have a Spongebob hand warmer(from III-6) and Pikachu (from DUO) but both are dirty and as of the moment, not presentable.

I wish to have one of these though. 

it's Haina's teddy bear...

Yup, a giant teddy bear that I can hug when I sleep. I don’t want to believe that I should have a boyfriend first before I get one. If you are reading this, you know what I want for Christmas. But if you are quite generous, well, one for my birthday won’t hurt. Haha…

bookmarks

Back when I was in college, I was sooooo stingy—an excuse for being poor actually—and I could not have the heart to discard things even they seemed useless. The result is the accumulated “bookmarks” in my closet.

While I was arranging my things in my drawers, I found this bookmark I made when I was still in the University.

You got that right. I made that from the boards of stockings. Hehe.

This silhouette bookmark was given to me by Lyra dela Cruz, a former classmate in the University. Written near the edges is the lyrics of Sponge Cola’s Gemini.

Another one is this train ticket I got from purchasing a second hand book. It is not an ordinary train ticket. It is, or it used to be, subway ticket to London.

As of the moment, I don’t see how I can use them since most of my books are in boxes and I only read one book at a time now since I don’t have any requirement. They’ll see their tomorrow soon though. Come this June and my beloved books and their bookmarks will see what studying with Jahzeel Dionne V. Ybasco is.

funky wristwatches

I don’t have the leisure of money to spend on real “good” wristwatches. Yep, those wristwatches that cost so much but cannot even look decent.

Blimey…that’s just an excuse for not being able to have any.

Nevertheless, I don’t envy people who have those expensive time keepers. I get to enjoy my time and my money for these:

You see, I may not show my friends the finest watches on earth but I sure enjoy looking at my wristwatches.

bigbang

Friends and acquaintances often tell me that my favorite music is rock.

Funny that they tell me about it and not wait for confirmation. Not that I mind. In fact, I find it awesome that they are concerned about what I listen to.

They are not totally wrong though. I like it. But I don’t stick with it. I am quite promiscuous in music. It all depends on my mood—but most of the time it’s the other way around: music dictates my mood. Rather than feel empty for a long time, I go to music that will give me more life. Since love songs will end up making me cheesy, and dance songs make me hyper, then the next best thing is alternative music.  However, nothing beats official soundtracks of animations and films as they have better substance and quality.

From time to time, I deviate from my usual themes though. I look for new songs and experiment to figure out if they are good ear candies or plain crap.

Through that experiment, I found Bigbang. It is a Korean group composed of 5 members. I have been fond of them since 2008. From then on, I keep track of the group’s activities. They occupy a good number of slots in my playlist. Sometimes they sing rock or ballad. They have sung an OST too. Most of the time they play hiphop. What makes them a good band for me is they keep on exceeding my expectations.

One good clue of how much I like them is: the first time that I bought a CD and not waited for the songs to be converted to MP3 and be available on line was when I bought Bigbang’s Japanese album.

Now that I am saying this to the whole nation, probably nobody will tell me that my favorite music is rock. Otherwise, I will give that person a big bang.

nihonggo notes and osaka pen

While cleaning up, I saw some of my old notes including the one I used for my nihonggo self-study years ago, and a pen from Osaka University.

Going back to the Japanese study?

Nope, just getting back to anime addiction.

Aside from that, who needs self study when she has a friend who will soon translate the animations they watch together.

Hehe, gambatte  Maiden-sama/ yeobo/ Eejeong/ Ryoma…

…Is it gaMbatte or gaNbatte?

HOW YOU CAN MESS UP A MEETING

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• 1.       say the same thing over and over again
• 2.       ask questions and don’t listen to answers
• 3.       point out non-existent mistakes because you think they are there
• 4.       compare workers right at their faces
• 5.       teach employees or co-workers what they already know
• 6.       shut up when you are expected to speak
• 7.       agree to whatever is being said
• 8.       ask for suggestions but not give any
• 9.       act as if you know what to do
• 10.   have a meeting without coming up with any agenda

As any of my lists, this can go as long as eternity permits it. Anybody who experiences the same thing, raise your hand and say “Aye!”

decisions: result

I wrote about my life changing decision here. It has been a year. I am still sitting in the same place, using the same computer. Nothing has changed except maybe for my haircut…and well, my clothes. However, mentally and socially, I think I have grown.

I have learned a different language. I can read and write Hangul now, can understand Korean dramas and correct some hastily made subs. In return, I have acquired a good amount of different culture and included it my daily life.

I have learned to criticize pieces of literature and art (mada mada dane: I still need to study though). I have read a good number of books, blogs, mangas, and yes, fanfictions. All these contribute to more writing styles for my part. I have learned to write more important things (yes, fanfiction IS important) than plain rants in my blog.

I have learned to criticize people under their very noses and get away unscathed. However, I also know now how to deal with different people.

I have learned how to be a better hypocrite. When before, I used to just be silent when I did not like something or somebody, right now, I can smile without giving any clue to what I really feel. How do I know this? Because people still keep coming, even if I don’t like some of them to. I have learned to adjust to what part of me they want to see, what reactions they want from me. I feel honored whenever my real friends point this out to me. At least, I still have that part of me that is human.

As I continue having a mask on, I have learned to be genuine. I have learned to show how happy, angry, and sad I am to people I choose. I speak openly when I am depressed. I clown around when I am happy. I destroy things, or mutter curses in the dark when I am angry.

I have learned to make, value, and keep not good, but great friends.

I have maintained a harmonious relationship with my family despite the randomness of my decisions.

You see, I have grown so much. I can’t say I regret making that decision a year ago. Far from it.

I am not disappointed… But I am also not satisfied…Those conditions are part of my standards of living after all.

For the meantime, I can say I am happy… I know however, that I can be happier.

This is the time that I know that I will make another decision.

pasta and pizza...wah hungry hungry hungry

Kim Ja Bee had this when she met her friend last Sunday...mouthwatering pasta, worth it to challenge those fats...nyahahaha