11.3.10

decision

....i have already made my decision...it is now or never...
.i will probably regret my decision, but if i wouldn't do it now, when would i do it...when i am too old already?
..i will probably hate myself afterwards. probably i am just in search for what stacey orrico says as a "temporary high" but this high makes me happy.
...i will probably cry gallons of tears but i know, if i am indeed in search for true happiness, i should stick to the little joys that i find, and grab those opportunities that only pass my way once...
....i will probably get a little bit disappointed since this would feel as if i am back to step one. But if step one is closer to what i think will make me happy, then why should i not take the risk....
.....i will probably miss people...and people will probably miss me but i cannot let each minute pass by without making an effort to get nearer to my Personal Legend. I should not let this legend miss me.
......no matter what happens in the end, i only have myself to blame. But what is worse for me is to find out that i did not succeed because i didn't try. I don't want to cry bitter tears of regret for things i hesitate to do. I have had enough of regrets. I have already eaten my piece of cake.
........so whether things will turn out for the better or for worse, i will just have to remember, that i have made this decision on my own based on what i think, what i perceive, what i think. I will just have to remember that i have made this decision on my own with no one but the One who has lend me wisdom and bravery.
....i have already made my decision...it is now or never...

1 comment:

Blazestriker said...

Wishing you the best of luck with whatever you have planned for your future. Always remember that your friends are by your side even if you don't really see them face to face. Really would miss you, old bagatelle. 'Til we meet again sometime in the near future...
"The biggest sin isn't one of the seven dealdy sins, it is actually REGRET..."